Healing: The Cultivate project is all about healing yourself. How have you healed yourself, your relationships, and/ or your community this year? How would you like to heal these aspects next year?
This was an incredibly loaded, heavy prompt for me. I wrote this prompt knowing I’d need to answer it — but not realizing how deeply the subject of healing would stump me. Perhaps it’s because I so desperately feel the need to heal that I had such a difficult time facing these questions.
This year I healed myself by giving up gluten. I may not always notice any difference, but I notice the pain and discomfort I experience after accidental (or intentional) glutening. I moved out of my in-laws house, decreasing a lot of stress, anxiety, and depression. I also breathe easier again. I don’t judge smokers unless they’re in a house with non-smokers, chain smoking a fog in the breathing space of others. I lost twenty pounds, which increased my self-esteem and decreased the size of my clothes. I initiated the Cultivate project, exploring myself from a different vantage point. I’ve made more time for my family and identified problems that we need to address moving forward. I smiled at nearly everyone in my community, serving as a beacon of hope — and hopefully inspiration.
Next year I’d like to continue this momentum. I’d like to further decrease my feelings of stress, anxiety, and depression. I’d like to feed myself a healthier, cleaner, more whole menu (diet is so cliché). I’d like less sugar, less saturated and partially hydrogenated fats, less words I can’t pronounce, and less plastic. I’d like more fruits, vegetables, chicken, turkey, fish, potatoes, brown rice, olive oil, nuts, seeds, beans, and new foods I’ve never tried before. I’d like to feel stronger and more energetic. I’d like to feel well-rested and full of immunity. I’d like to strengthen my bonds with family and friends. I’d like to provide constructive input to help my community prosper. I’d like to become involved with initiatives to rebuild the dying, dilapidated areas. We deserve so much better than crumbling rubble. We deserve places to shop, eat, and visit. We deserve to have more to offer tourists and passers-by.