If you were able to throw yourself a shower to begin 2014, what gifts would you give yourself? Has there been something you’ve realized has been missing and now need? What has it been?
While it’s hardly still the beginning of 2014, I do know some of the gifts I’ve been missing — from tangible to intangible. Quite honestly, I would give myself a clean financial slate if I could. Credit cards need to be wiped from my record. A private student loan should be wiped out by now. I think I’d also give myself some good flavored coffee, delicious flavored creamers made with real milk and sugar, ginseng supplements, and tons of water to energize myself for all the big projects I’ve got on my plate. For the sake of my sanity, I’m truly hoping to purge much of the “things” from my life so I can rest a little easier — and clean up a lot faster. This has been an incredibly difficult task with all of life’s circumstances, but these past nearly 16 months have given me a different perspective on life.
Really and truly, I desperately need solitary time each day. I don’t do well when I’m expected to be a social creature from my waking moment until the time I finally hide under the blankets for the night. I need my breathing space to collect my thoughts and recharge myself. This is easier said than done, as it were. Right now I’m forcibly separated from my husband (STILL!), so I don’t have my tag team partner to given me that well-deserved breather. But if I had the room to just sit down, be with myself, and let my mind unravel itself for a bit, I might have more clarity in my life. I have felt like a frazzled teenager all over again. I have felt oppressed and trapped. I want the gift of victory — of freedom to be myself, to be mom, to be the wife, and to simply be.
