#AprilMoon15 Day 2

Knowing what I know now, I would tell my ten-years-ago self:

Ten years ago, it was April 2005. I was struggling to make it as a pre-vet student. I was struggling to find a job so we could afford to move to a better apartment in a better neighborhood. I was trying to build a new life, but I was also trying to live a childhood dream. I eventually changed my major because I failed chemistry and calculus too many times. I landed a job at a cat clinic and found that I really enjoyed my work. We moved in August 2005 into a much nicer, much safer apartment in a complex that saw us welcome two new babies into the family. Ten years ago, we were still a family of 3, still young and inexperienced.

I always question ideas like this — what would the affects of me telling my past self about the future do to my present? Would I like those changes? It’s one of those things that comes with consequences. However, I do value ambiguity as a way to keep things safe. So, I would tell my ten-years-ago self to keep smiling like I always do. To have courage even when everything seems hopeless. To dream even when my dreams are shattered. To look for flowers. To look for light. To never stop pursuing and cultivating happiness. And shouldn’t we all do that anyway? Shouldn’t we all keep smiling and having courage? I think so.